I have an exam tomorrow at 8 am and it is now 2:47 a.m. and with no luck I am still awake. -Sighs- I want to fall asleep, I have attempted to fall asleep but I find myself running thought and ideas through my head. I have noticed that I am starting to get to a ending point. Meaning I am tired of getting my feelings hurt by people's words and actions. All I do is sit there and pout or just take it and do nothing. Espically, by people who I expect more from. I guess everyone goes through that once in a while.

Lol I get to see my baby cousin in a few days!!! (Love ya babe) ^.^ I am pretty excited about that. I feel like I am missing so much and that she needs me more then 2 or 3 times a year. But when I get down there we are going to have lots of fun... promise.

Christmas, Christmas... wow only 12 days. lol I feel like it should be Oct. I am not ready for it. I have presents to get for my loved ones. I was informed that I had to put a list on here and I have been putting it off. here are some things that would be nice but I am not holding my breath on it.

1. Polar bear stuff animal (Just went tonight to see Golden Compas soo I am hooked)
2. (No one can help with this) But I want my mom to actually be happy for Christmas... I wish her bf would pop the question cause I know she wants that. And as much as I try I can't make her Christmas happy.

(Your wish as been granted....I put a list on there... happy?!?! lol ^.~)

My throat really hurts so I think I might try taking sumthin for it and tryin to fall asleep. It feels uncomfortable not having my older brother here. I am so use to him being here to talk to and he stayed away so i can rest up. (Yea right... like I am doing that 1)

But I must head off to slumber.. night yall